Back in the saddle- day 4

hey. so its day 4 of training for richmond and i've already fallen behind in documenting this. nice.
So I guess I just wanted to start this marathon with a focus on the cause I'm supporting, that cause being IJM. By 'focus,' I really mean i want to be motivated by this cause, and to feel like it's something really important to me instead of just something i am attaching to running, which is probably the more important of the two to me.
I know. it sounds terrible. really, it is a sad truth. but im striving for one-hundred percent honesty here, so lets just get it all out on the table. what I really want during this marathon process, besides a faster time when i cross the finish line, is a deeper passion for people who dont have freedom, and for a greater understanding of God's justice.
I mean, I get what IJM is about, and I do think it is incredibly important for me to be involved in this organization. Nobody deserves to live as a captive of another person, especially when it involves sexual and physical abuse. how people are capable of hurting others in this way, of thinking they can buy and sell and trade them as some material commodity is something i cant wrap my mind around. so God bless the workers at IJM and their efforts, and praise Jesus that there are people who care more about others than their own safety and comfort. i get that part, and im invested.
the part i dont get so much is that God is one who loves justice. ijm sends out these prayer lists every week, and each one begins with a scripture about god's justice, and i know praying for the workers and rescued victims is vital, but somehow god's being just is lost. i know the bible says it. but the bible says that god brings to the poor and weak and orphans and widows, and this just isnt something i see happening. so maybe i just dont understand god's heart for justice because i dont see it in this world. i mean, jesus even said that we would always have the poor and needy with us. maybe i've just grown to see that our way of thinking of fairness and goodness isn't necessarily the same as god's way, so maybe god's idea of justice is different from ours? maybe it is entirely other worldly and his justice will prevail in heaven, but really? god, where is your justice here?
so in conclussion, this 16 week training time is a preparation for this race, but also a time when i will be digging to understand god's just character. because if he truly is one who desires justice, then i am motivated to fight for it.
any ideas? leave them. i would LOVE to hear them.